cheat day/weigh in day...finally decided.. TOM/Ovar. Cysts.. *GIRL BLOG*

Alright, so.everyone is human. I think? HAHA... i have decided, that IF i'm to have a cheat day, it will be Saturdays, followed by a weigh in on Sunday. This way, if i DO cheat, i won't go overboard...and be more aware of what and how much i'm eating..that i shouldn't eat.. and will ask, IS IT WORTH IT? Yesterday, I made the Terrible mistake of over doing it with the coffee, and not eating food, before Tyler's (WINNING 14-2) Playoff game... so, by the end of the game, i was Starving..and my bff,the kids and I went to Hibachi. NEXT TIME i will attack the salads and protiens..not the other crap, as .. that's how i feel today..LIKE CRAP.. more guilty, than hung over. Regardless, the scale only went up a pound.. and i was smart enough to keep my "gurdle" on, with my somewhat tight (meant to be that way) Jeans... I could feel my belly quickly fill with the junk, and knew when to stop vs.. going to a buffet, with the usual elastic waist pants...and just eating til i want yo blow.
Last night however, i know i burned the Calories, or..some of them anyway, as we (bff and I) sang a lot of karaoke *HELLO AB WORKOUT*! and some Dance Central.

As for today, dunno WHY? could be the junk that i ate, but... i mean..TMI WARNING* I am on the pill... I have ovarian cysts... I used to get terrible TOM's... now it's somewhat under control, but i've noticed, lately, that the cyst has been acting up.. feeling.. full, and painful, with random spasms somewhere in that area.. painful.. but also..feels like a baby kicking almost? Well, Now, I wake in the middle of the night last night, with aweful cramps and a pop feeling.. i was so tired, i didn't think anything of it, but today.. i now have terrible cramps, and bleeding :( Did the junk contribute? Who knows.. I do know however, i'm hurting today. so, gonna have to wait it out, and see if it subsides otherwise,i have to call the dr. *shudders*

PICTURES shrinking in 4 months. PIX

so..have yu ever been dropping the lbs... and need some inspiration bc the scale shows, but when ya look in the mirror, that tiny voice in your head says... you don't see it... it's not worth it.. Grab the Junk.. just do it? Well, i decided to shut it up, and compare pix. byt the end of this month, i expect to see major differences..... beings i was 200, and now 169ish. so, for now, this will do :)

SO... ROUGHLY 40 POUNDS.. MAYBE 35... lost. with yo yo~ing. still, not to shabby. yes, i fell of the wagon a few times, but i jumped right back on, and i'm still loosing! Last night was so hard for me, as it was emotional night,,, and all i wanted to do was attack the pringles. But, stuck to my guns, and dicipline. Side note, for anyone Not LC'ing... if you're like the others who say just eat a handful...you'll be fine.. NO, I won't. I have an addiction to food, and i binge, even when (and ESPECIALLY WHEN) i am not on low carb....and i can't eat Just a handful. I am not to that point yet. For now, I am learning to love myself, and discipline myself, and when i'm at goal, it will be Then, that i start bringing the "normal" foods back to my daily diet. I have to say though.. I have friends not in our country... and they don't eat all the trash, and poison that we here in America eat. We as a whole, in my opinion are a very glutonous group of people. No where does it say that chips and candy are nutritious, or that we HAVE TO INCLUDE IT IN OUR DAILY DIETS. NO WHERE DOES IT STATE that when at a buffet, we need to go up to all 12 tables over and over and over again... we were just brought up that way... it is so unhealthy. Yet, these are the people that lecture and tell those who are trying to detoxify ourselves, and eat greens, and lean meats, and LOW CARB wraps and breads in MODERATION, that we are wrong? To "JUST EAT IT"... if THAT food is so good for you, then, answer this.. why is it, that after a day, or even..Meal of eating mashed potatoes, with butter... and starchy peas, and texas toast, and a hefty helping of lasagna,... do the ones who do not eat it on a daily basis, grow sick? stomach aches, headaches, chills, vomiting even? Because OUR bodies have grown accustomed to the HEALTHY vegetables, and high fiber pastas, and the cauliflower, and the asparagus and brussel sprouts.
I often sit back, while being lectured, and wonder.. WHY? Why do the non lc'ers get so ANGRY? Perhapps they simply do not unerstand? or, is their frusterations geared more towards their tipping scales?, as they watch us bettering our bodies? our skin glowing? our clothes falling off, waist lines,arms,legs, everything shrinking before their very eyes?... are they actually frusterated with themselves? and their doubts in self discipline and life style changes? Perhapps. I will say this much, I was once them... shoveling the tasty cakes, chips,pretzels,dips, over excess of Crap down my throat... for me, it was bc of an abusive relationship with food.. i didn't feel complete, unless we were together, and i was tasting every bit of what was before me.. and if it wasn't near me, i would feel worse... and go find it, and eat double what i would before! HOWEVER, not ONCE did i EVER lecure yell at or tease people who were eating differently... I wanted to change... and i made a HUGE change with myself. and I'm very proud of myself for doing it! I wish that those out there though, who disagree (for whatever reason?) with MY choices in what i put into my body, would kindly Shaddup! They do not understand, we are not sacraficing, or giving up our favorite foods, we are simply modifying it... to be healthier. better cholesterol, less aches and pains, better skin,hair,everything!.... So, tell me again......... what is so wrong with how i'm choosing to live? I could go on and on ... but i wont. (for now) Anyone else going through this? Any of you struggle with friends who do not understand low carb? Anyone TIRED of explaining? and Arguing??