ello Loves ;) Yesterday was such a nice day! we went grocery shopping to 3 different stores.. spent the later part of the afternoon watching tyler practice baseball w his team... then came home and had some irish food.
::sigh:: I finally picked up the phone and made the appointment w the specialist to go over my blood work. The date is set for Monday April 11th... i'm pretty nervous. My body has been so out of wack lately... i don't even want to Think about what it could be.
Smoking! MAN! i do NOT miss it... HOWEVER... I am having a difficult time with the hamd/mouth thing, as well as the "turn to smokes to avoid my emotional pain/struggles" like.. today.. i was so ticked off that my jeans wouldn't stay up... and i started crying.. not bc of the obvious.. Eh.. i'm loosing weight........ but bc my body is far from normal......... my torso is so hacked up and lumpy from all the scars from the 9 abdominal surgeries i've had :( I wanted to badly to brush off the feelings, and go out for a smoke... but i couldn't/didnt... HOWEVER i also did NOT run to the cabinet for a salty snack.. *pats on the back* So.......... instead, i cried for a few minutes... "brushed it off"..... and went about my morning doing laundry and such. i can Honestly say i hate my body... But, i'm doing what i humanly can to better it! WHICH brings me to my next thing...........
HOW TO STOP EMOTIONAL EATING!!!............ this is probably where i'm supposed to fill in the blank.. or post a good dr's name w a life time supply of Scripts for Zoloft/Paxil/Prozac etc. Well.. guess what..... I got nothin. All i can say is if at first you don't succeed ...try try again.......don't give up, and have faith in yourself.
I was def. loosing will power to get healthy and all that.. then i took a few pix today..and compared..and despite the numbers on the scale.... My pants don't lie... neither do the pics.. i def lost.. which has inspired me to continue to GET HEALTHY~er! I'm proud of myself.. I've accomplished quite a lot in the past few months.
I've learned to Confidently say NO
I QUIT SMOKING
I SERIOUSLY cut back on drinks
I started excersising
I RAN for the first time in forever
I FINALLY went to dentist, and got/still getting Major work done!
I've lost some inches
I've inspired others to get healthy...and have helped them on their journeys as well..
I've grabbed my life by the horns, and chose a direction,steared, and hit the gas pedal...
I'm getting somewhere! and the only other direction MY option is ... is UP! :)
Now, back to the fun stuff........ FOOD!.... i had a mocha Atkins shake... then i drank sugar free strawberry banana jello on ice to fill me up so i don't nibble on nuts... I'm not sure what to do for dinner. I'm not a hard core religious chick.. but the husb wants to have fish to be "traditional"....... i DO have tilapia fillets...and asparagus.. soooooooooooo beings it's gonna be in the 70s today.. i might just have to turn the grill on, and bbq some fish! Other wise, we will have bbq chicken and cauli~something. oh! the Pics!!!! check this out! With quitting smokeing.. plus my bday and all............ i def had a good amount of food i should NOT have had............ HOWEVER..I STILL MANAGED TO LOOSE! so... here is 3.5week difference
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| 2/21/11 |
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| 3/18/11 |
6/4/11
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| 2/21/11 |
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| 3/18/11 |
6/4/11
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| Wegmans Mojo Chicken...oven baked,,,topped w rotel tomatoes n cilantro,chipotle lime cheddar cheese... cheese sauce w black olives, asparagus w garlic cheese butter |
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my mug shot :-p
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